My first 12 weeks of pregnancy...wow how slow it felt! My
husband and I found out right on the day my period was late. We had been
counting down what felt like the slowest 2 weeks of our lives since ovulation
date to see if this final chance we had for the next 6 months was finally going
work. IT DID!
It wasn’t as easy for us as it seemed to be for everyone
around. We tried for many months and each fail was another tug on the old heart
strings. Then came the news of close friends all falling pregnant. It seemed
like every month someone would announce their happy news, while we got the news
of another fail. This brought up very mixed emotions. Obviously happiness for
them as it’s what we all want after all, but also grief as I began to feel like
there was obviously something wrong with me that it wasn’t working yet others
pretty much had to sit on a toilet seat and BAM positive test. It started to
really get to me, I didn’t want to talk to people or see people I just put
walls up. I had been told after a Laparoscopy operation for Endometriosis I had
when I was 22 that if I didn’t have children within 2-3 years I could find
problems arise. I always just thought “no way I’m still young I’ll be fine.” I
was in the end, just needed a little bit of help.
With our last chance to try looming before my husband was to
leave for Sydney for nearly 6 months we decided rather than just keep doing the
normal thing that’s obviously not working we would try something else.
That’s where Dann “magic hands” Stokes from TLC acupuncture
comes in. Dann had already helped with a shoulder problem I had and made me
aware of Reproductive acupuncture treatments mixed with Chinese herbs that was
proven to be very successful. It was a great natural alternative to injecting
myself with hormone boosters straight away. I had 4 treatments (this is a
record) and took my herbs and used my cigar looking stick that probably made
our neighbours think we smoked weed as it smelled similar. Sure enough it
worked! Normally people need more treatments then this. I think changing alot
of things helped to. I did yoga and read books and familiarised myself with
foods that are recommend for both of us to eat to help. Was happy to try
anything! I did my homework!
So came the day we found out! My husband Jason had left for
Sydney by this time so while on the phone to eachother (we thought skype might
be a bit too far lol) I took the test and it was POSITIVE! (I did another one
the next day because I was still doubtful). With 2 positives I went to the Dr
had my blood tests and a few days later got the news we had been waiting so
many months for. WE WERE PREGNAT! (I’m getting teary writing this!) Due to my
history and our conceiving issues my dr sent me off to have a scan to check
everything was fine. My best friend in toe as Jason and my parents had decided
to leave me (okaii so my parents were on a well deserved 5 week USA holiday) we
went to the scan and right there in front of me was our little bambino. Was so
hard to believe it was all real and I held in tears.
Then came the fun part of acting normal to everyone to try
and keep it a secret until 12 weeks! I was very lucky I wasn’t that sick. I
felt off and coffee was horrible to smell it make me feel yuck and I went off
Veggies and just wanted carbs, carbs and more carbs. Overall though I like to
think myself very lucky, I think I got out of morning sickness pretty well. It
wasn’t fun I’m not in a rush to go through it again but despite going at it
alone with no husband or mum nearby to help I did well. Going out with friends
who were also pregnant and not being able to burst out and tell them the news
we’d be wanting to share with the world for months was hard.
Then hormones kicked in, I felt very lonely and like I was
living a double life at times. I had days that I would break down and resent
the fact Jason was away. I was angry that all this excitement and we were in
separate states. Just the typical life of an Army wife I would tell myself. Not
that it made it any better. By the time 12 weeks came round (it felt like
forever!!!) I had another scan! Wow how much bambino had grown in that small
time! Bub was kicking its legs, rolling over and moving its arms right there on
the screen in front of me. I did start crying at this time and wished Jason
could have been there for the experience to. Excitingly enough I was off after
that scan to pick Jason up from the airport to head to a wedding for the
weekend. We told our close friends that night, and then announced it to
everyone 2 days later. It felt so great to let it out and not feel like I had
this secret anymore. I no longer felt sick and I felt like all my energy had
come back. Was ready to take on the 2nd Trimester!
